A song I wrote earlier this year.

This song is very much a minor threat sounding song, if u cant hear how i wanted it to sound, then its just thoughts.

Look at everything you are,
And everyone you represent
You hide who you are so well
But i hope youre dying inside
Show me a life worth living (background yells: that you preach)

Youre so quick to preach
and so quick to cry
while you bow at your altar (and claim to change)
Look at your heart,
Look at the girl you so quickly screwed over
Can you even look her in the eyes?
Do you even care how You broke her (From what you preach)

Show me a life worth living (You never cared for her)
Show me a life worth living (You never were real)
Show me a life worth living (With how you act)
Show me a life worth living (by actual change)

Everything you speak is Love
Everything you want is revolution
But everything you do is hate

You screwed my friend
one last time,
Broke another person's spirit
From what you spoke
Verses how you live
You made your prayer public
And then you had your actions in shame

You are the pastor I hate
And no better than anyone else
Get out of the pulpit with your heresies

The worst part of it all,
Is I am this pastor I hate.

Actually i'm going to post my socialism paper next week, sorry

Thats what it will be, but i dont want to post it until its all graded and such.

There's a post coming tonight

Its a post on how i think Christians should view the economy, its not exactly what i have to say, but it's a paper i'm turning in tomorrow, but i'm posting it on here so checkback at like 2 am.

THoughts

Today's thoughts:
1. MAN I NEED TO BECOME WAY MORE OTHERS' CENTERRED
2. Less I's and Me's more you's and God's
3. really how often do i comment on myself?! its ridiculous humility i NO opinion of self not negative or positive, none at all. thats all

NOt much to tonights, but a solid thought.

This is to the Christians who say things like, "I've worked hard for what I have." or "Why should i share with them, they havent done what i have?" Or people who deny social Healthcare (REAL SOCIAL HEALTHCARE, not the in between fake social healthcare that is known as Obamacare, and is just a bunch of pages no one read)  Read Acts 2: 42-47, and Read Acts 4: 32-37.  Tell me socialism isn't the CHristian view...  It's a challenge, secondly with this challenge, give to someone this week, as an act of sharing.

Acts 4 part 1 thoughts.... no catchy title tonight.

Acts 4 opens with Peter and John, (Jesus' Disciples) being punished by the Sanhedrin for doing a miracle and claiming the power of it through Jesus the Christ.  As i read on, Some powerful things were revealed to me.
Verse 11 states that Jesus is the stone you (Sanhedrin) builders rejected, which has become the capstone.  And 12, Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to men by which we must be saved.  This is showing that some of the most powerful religious leaders of the time were denying Jesus.  Going on with my current thoughts of breaking for those who destroy different cultures, I have come to realize that many times people will use God's name to obtain power, and as we all know, power corrupts.
(Why'd i put a break here? i dont know yet)
This makes me think about these religious leaders, trying to stop what they admit as fact, knowing the miracles were done through Jesus and that the population knows, they just dont want it to spread.  This is where I realize something, the corrupt in the church, need our prayer and our love, just as much as the unloved, and those who do not love need love.  This is where i need to learn to hold back my anger, and become filled with the Holy Spirit to show people God is King, and Love through Him is Real.  This is not to be glorifying to myself though, but only to God.

At the same time, I acknowledge, that i, myself, am in fact the corrupt.  For like all people I have done things I'll always regret.  (Living with no regrets is a joke, that is untrue and a lie people tell themselves)  When acknowledging that I am as corrupt as the people I want to love, I am brought down to the REAL level of where I am.  I was never above the corrupt. I am one with the corrupt who should love them as well.

I lost sight of where i was going in this post. So i believe I will end with this one thought.

Love those claiming God's name, Peter and John did, and in the end, the multitudes were praising God.  The Law could not stop the spreading of God's name, and Lord, create in me the heart Peter and John had for you in verse 20, "For we canot help speaking about what we have seen and heard"  DO this for those surrounding me daily.

Make this my prayer...

Father, as I come before you, hoping to write this in love and reverence for you; I think to myself, and pray to YOu, Lord make this your will, let your word and Love shine through it, not mine, dont let what i have to say come through.

I find myself often in a position of anger towards God, and anger towards "Christians." and I am thinking about this tonight, and it begins to bother me.  Oddly after a many days without being in the Word, my marker was at Acts 3.  As i Read this verse struck me.  A verse that many people overlook as simply a historical reminder, but really as a reminder that I myself do this to the Lord often

Acts 3:13-15
The God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, the God of our fathers, has glorified his servant Jesus.  You handed him over to be killed and you disowned him before Pilate, though he had decided to let him go.  You disowned the Holy and Righteous One and asked that a murderer be released to you.  You killed the author of life, but God has raised him from the dead.  We are witnesses of this.


This reminds me, why am i so angry?!

Instead of a ministry to punks, a ministry needs to be made to those who so quickly diminish the punk culture.  God, develop a love for these people in me, instead of a hatred.  When i see the trials, and people talking down on it, Lord, Show them love through me.

This is God reminding me, It is not Him i am angry with, but it is often my own fault, for choosing the murderer to be set free with me that I am angry.

I find myself asking the Lord to show me how i choose the murderer over him.  And how to help me to stop, as I am praying he helps whoever reads this, see how each of you chooses the murderer instead of Jesus to live.

With love, the kid who hasnt posted in far too long!