I've done a lot to rearrange
but is this a new start?
Have i really started to change
Inside this stone heart?
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Sunday, October 16, 2011
hastily scratched poem
Oh Father,
What have I done,
What have I done
Every Girl
They're just the same
another object for me
to play a game
Abbaprotect my eyes
I've rayed this prayer
One Too many times
Abba Erase my mind
God, I believe you make us brand new
But what, what can i do?
I've gone searching for you
Just to turn away for another night anew.
God restart my mind
I've prayed this prayer
Far too many times
God restart my mind.
I've done these things
Just too many times
Will i ever be whole
What have I done,
What have I done
Every Girl
They're just the same
another object for me
to play a game
Abbaprotect my eyes
I've rayed this prayer
One Too many times
Abba Erase my mind
God, I believe you make us brand new
But what, what can i do?
I've gone searching for you
Just to turn away for another night anew.
God restart my mind
I've prayed this prayer
Far too many times
God restart my mind.
I've done these things
Just too many times
Will i ever be whole
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Worth it
Two songs have begun to stick in my head lately.
The two of these songs are
Amber by Stick to Your Guns
And for the less angry, but still slightly angry
Rise Against's Make it stop
These are 2 songs by very strongly committed atheists, that are all about treating people right.
As i've stated before, God works through non-Christian things. We Christians we like to limit God to these things we find holy. It makes us uncomfortable to see God at work in things that we don't quite understand. IE people we've marginalized in the past, or people we just have not shown love to. Well God's definitely moved through these 2 videos in me.
Basically, the song amber, is about a girl who took her own life. Its about how life came crashing down, and she did not know where to go. and people did not want her. And make it stop, by Rise Against, is standing up for the people who get marginalized especially homosexuals. With these things. these 2 bands, are saying to love people.
To express that these people are worth it. They are worth your time. They are worth being loved on. These people should be spoken to, and loved, not protested against, not told their problems are nothing, but listened to, and tried to be understood for where they are at in life. Not to be preached at, but to be lived with. These songs really made me think
What about my words. I speak a ton. but really how positive and how inviting are they really?
God has shown me 1000 times that I'm his beloved, but how many times do i say the word gay, offending so many people around me? even when i don't realize it.
These songs, have reminded me, people. every individual. is in fact worth it. the anti-homophobia of make it stop, has really shown some light. because of this, i want to remove the words, gay, homosexual, queer, and faggot out of my vocabulary. Its worth it. However, i speak alot. so you, any reader reading this, who hears me say any of these words. stop me, where i'm at, and say why are you doing that? Love them.
God pick me and prune me, make me grow. Help me to watch my tongue so that it is inviting and loving to Others.
Love Love,
Zekejones
The two of these songs are
Amber by Stick to Your Guns
And for the less angry, but still slightly angry
Rise Against's Make it stop
These are 2 songs by very strongly committed atheists, that are all about treating people right.
As i've stated before, God works through non-Christian things. We Christians we like to limit God to these things we find holy. It makes us uncomfortable to see God at work in things that we don't quite understand. IE people we've marginalized in the past, or people we just have not shown love to. Well God's definitely moved through these 2 videos in me.
Basically, the song amber, is about a girl who took her own life. Its about how life came crashing down, and she did not know where to go. and people did not want her. And make it stop, by Rise Against, is standing up for the people who get marginalized especially homosexuals. With these things. these 2 bands, are saying to love people.
To express that these people are worth it. They are worth your time. They are worth being loved on. These people should be spoken to, and loved, not protested against, not told their problems are nothing, but listened to, and tried to be understood for where they are at in life. Not to be preached at, but to be lived with. These songs really made me think
What about my words. I speak a ton. but really how positive and how inviting are they really?
God has shown me 1000 times that I'm his beloved, but how many times do i say the word gay, offending so many people around me? even when i don't realize it.
These songs, have reminded me, people. every individual. is in fact worth it. the anti-homophobia of make it stop, has really shown some light. because of this, i want to remove the words, gay, homosexual, queer, and faggot out of my vocabulary. Its worth it. However, i speak alot. so you, any reader reading this, who hears me say any of these words. stop me, where i'm at, and say why are you doing that? Love them.
God pick me and prune me, make me grow. Help me to watch my tongue so that it is inviting and loving to Others.
Love Love,
Zekejones
Friday, October 7, 2011
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
i'm just like isreal
You ever notice, those times of growth, that seem surreal?
Ya know when u go like a month without stopping from smiling?
then out of nowhere.
A sin creeps up on you.
Not like the roaring lion, because youre prepared to fight that off with your stock sermon armor of God.
But it finds its way through a small crack in your protection. and creeps its whole way around your body.
It is that first thought, of judging a person as worse than you in church, because you've been growing so much.
Then maybe its that second thought, where you want to reem someone out for the wrongs they've done to you, not realizing how wrong you've been to them. Then maybe that third thought, is when you look at that person with longing eyes just for a minute too long as they walk by. Then you turn around, and do your best to respect her, even though she was the equivalent of a television show for your eyes a second go.
This sin, it finds its way in.
When were fighting the BIG battles.
It sneaks in from a tv show, or a joke.
It finds its way in through a song that brings up old memories.
Or in a movie that has content you did not know about going into it.
It deteriorates our armor.
It takes the battle were fighting, and makes it a losing battle.
then out of nowhere.
You stop enjoying worship. and you do everything you can to comeback to where you were, just a week ago.
Ya know. you start fighting the battle for yourself.
Instead of letting God fight the battle.
Its funny, as soon as we lose a little sight of God, because of sin seperating us. we immediately feel this need to fix it ourselves.
WHAT THE HECK ARE WE GONNA DO!? REALLY?!
really zeke.
You just messed up your walk with God.
and you expect yourself to turn it around.
Come on man, you've heard this all before.
You wont fix anything.
Youre the one who messed it all up.
Thankfully. that is just how i see myself in those times.
God sees me differently. God sees me and sees everything he will do through me. not my failures.
And thankfully. God picks me up.
God starts to fight this fight for me. And work out the 'big' and 'little' sins.
you see we need not to fight this. but to grow in God and stand up for ourselves as much as possible.
We have a God who has won the battle already.
HE stinking transcends existence. I think he's won the battle we cant even fight by ourselves for us.
SO then the question is what do we do about this?
Because day to day we need to continue to work on how to better ourselves.
Well it can be summed up in the title of one worship song.
(seriously how cliche is this? zeke you can do better :P)
We were made for you (God). We love God. in the song hosanna, it says when we see you we find strength to face the day. God, you've won the battle, and you continue to fight for us in our growing. We were made for you, help us to live out that wholeness.
--Your Beloved Son
Ya know when u go like a month without stopping from smiling?
then out of nowhere.
A sin creeps up on you.
Not like the roaring lion, because youre prepared to fight that off with your stock sermon armor of God.
But it finds its way through a small crack in your protection. and creeps its whole way around your body.
It is that first thought, of judging a person as worse than you in church, because you've been growing so much.
Then maybe its that second thought, where you want to reem someone out for the wrongs they've done to you, not realizing how wrong you've been to them. Then maybe that third thought, is when you look at that person with longing eyes just for a minute too long as they walk by. Then you turn around, and do your best to respect her, even though she was the equivalent of a television show for your eyes a second go.
This sin, it finds its way in.
When were fighting the BIG battles.
It sneaks in from a tv show, or a joke.
It finds its way in through a song that brings up old memories.
Or in a movie that has content you did not know about going into it.
It deteriorates our armor.
It takes the battle were fighting, and makes it a losing battle.
then out of nowhere.
You stop enjoying worship. and you do everything you can to comeback to where you were, just a week ago.
Ya know. you start fighting the battle for yourself.
Instead of letting God fight the battle.
Its funny, as soon as we lose a little sight of God, because of sin seperating us. we immediately feel this need to fix it ourselves.
WHAT THE HECK ARE WE GONNA DO!? REALLY?!
really zeke.
You just messed up your walk with God.
and you expect yourself to turn it around.
Come on man, you've heard this all before.
You wont fix anything.
Youre the one who messed it all up.
Thankfully. that is just how i see myself in those times.
God sees me differently. God sees me and sees everything he will do through me. not my failures.
And thankfully. God picks me up.
God starts to fight this fight for me. And work out the 'big' and 'little' sins.
you see we need not to fight this. but to grow in God and stand up for ourselves as much as possible.
We have a God who has won the battle already.
HE stinking transcends existence. I think he's won the battle we cant even fight by ourselves for us.
SO then the question is what do we do about this?
Because day to day we need to continue to work on how to better ourselves.
Well it can be summed up in the title of one worship song.
(seriously how cliche is this? zeke you can do better :P)
We were made for you (God). We love God. in the song hosanna, it says when we see you we find strength to face the day. God, you've won the battle, and you continue to fight for us in our growing. We were made for you, help us to live out that wholeness.
--Your Beloved Son
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
words
How many times do we as Christians refer to the creator of all things at Lord.
Yet we don't even think of what that word really even means.
Lord, according to dictionary.com means, "a person who has authority, control, or power over others; amaster, chief, or ruler."
Now when we refer to God, as our Lord and savior. it brings a different thought to mind.
We think of the savior part so much. how much God has changed us, and how God will bring us into Heaven instead of this idea of a dominating being. Lord is the word for a servant or slave owner. Now God lets us live our own lives. so he is not like one of them, but maybe.
Maybe
We christians should start looking to God as a Lord. a Being that needs to have control over us.
Our tongues are something that kill us. I gossip all the time and need to grow out of this. God is to be our Lord. and the Word says that the tongue is like a double edged sword. In order to tame our tongue, i believe we need help from our Lord. to help control us, and through us, our tongues.
So many times throughout scripture it says, they spoke and people knew it was the word of the Lord. Or people knew that I am God (from GOd's view). I believe, we need to let the Lord, control us more. Let God own us.
Through his ownership. comes true freedom.
Yet we don't even think of what that word really even means.
Lord, according to dictionary.com means, "a person who has authority, control, or power over others; amaster, chief, or ruler."
Now when we refer to God, as our Lord and savior. it brings a different thought to mind.
We think of the savior part so much. how much God has changed us, and how God will bring us into Heaven instead of this idea of a dominating being. Lord is the word for a servant or slave owner. Now God lets us live our own lives. so he is not like one of them, but maybe.
Maybe
We christians should start looking to God as a Lord. a Being that needs to have control over us.
Our tongues are something that kill us. I gossip all the time and need to grow out of this. God is to be our Lord. and the Word says that the tongue is like a double edged sword. In order to tame our tongue, i believe we need help from our Lord. to help control us, and through us, our tongues.
So many times throughout scripture it says, they spoke and people knew it was the word of the Lord. Or people knew that I am God (from GOd's view). I believe, we need to let the Lord, control us more. Let God own us.
Through his ownership. comes true freedom.
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