God, are you asleep? Or do i just keep failing.

Its been a while.
A long while at that

Oh God, I find myself growing closer to some people.
But i find myself in Selfish, self destroying, relation destroying habbits
Lord, I thought these things were gone?
I thought these were things of the past?

I pray to you night after night
to take them away, take them away
To stregthen me, to be fruitful, and just in your eyes
To remove these fears, these problems
THese sins against U, against those around me, and even myself

I continue to hurt myself more than I help myself?

God are you asleep? or can You just not hear me?!
GIve me faith like the prostitue, faith enough to touch you.
Give me that great cloud of witnesses to love me, and prune me.
Lord, break these earthly habbits
These binding sins,
Destroy who i am, give me the faith that i need to win this.

God are you asleep?
God if youre awake, take away these pains
God if youre awake take away these sins of mine
God break me and Take me.

the past few days have been amazing

And God's definately moved, and shown me in many ways how he loves me, whether through strengthening friendships, or bringing in a certain special someone. God puts us in the right place at the right time.

Thats all i got tonight

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The other day i was playing Some Legend of Zelda, Ocarina of Time. (N64 game). Its pretty much the coolest game of all time. THere's literally only one thing about it I dont like. this little faerie follows you around the entire time. and YELLS LISTEN!  and it usually is trying to give you a hint at what to do. BUT is usually more annoying than anything.

This lead to some thinking.
How much noise is really in my life?
How much is being shoved in my face SO constantly.
And how much of that is SUPER self centered.
This media that surrounds everyone. cant just be one thing.
when youre on Facebook. ADDS are everwhere, on the benefits for you of whatever. Youre not doing one thing. youre perceiving tons of things.
With these noises and distractions, why are there so many?
Think about it, a simple check of the facebook, to see if that certain someone commented on your status, or sent you a message, and BAM! 3 chat windows opened, 3 adds taht are changing ever button click, and woah there you go, someone sending you a youtube link w/ 14 suggestions on the side, and an advertisement playing b4 you can even hear one stinking song. IT IS ALL trying FOR YOUR ATTENTION!
This all takes away from something much greater.
There is something, waiting for you to run away from all this though. Waiting for you to call on it, and it alone, and stir up some thoughts in your mind, to bring you closer to him.  To bring ideas of what each and every person should do, that WILL take them out of their comfort zone.
Yet we fade it out. WIth thousands of things. daily.

Silence. Heard of it? (eh eh, see what i did there?)

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him -- Psalm 37: 7


The wise of heart will receive commandments, but a babbling fool will come to ruin proverbs 10:8


These show us, that this constant bombardment is wrong.


I ask you. today tomorrow, SOON! Go be silent, and just ask the Lord, reveal yourself to me, Show yourself to me, Show me your will.


Do it, and wait, just wait for 20 min. Chill and wait, put the phone away. turn off the computer, Go outside, go away to where there isnt a bajillion *legit number* things calling your name, and listen.


LIsten to the silence.


Let it move in you. Let God show himself to you.
Moments like these, where I honestly want to hear God, are how I know he's REal. Are how I feel him, and Know him, and have a friendship w/ the Savior of everything.


Go! and be silent