i'm just like isreal

You ever notice, those times of growth, that seem surreal?
Ya know when u go like a month without stopping from smiling?
then out of nowhere.

A sin creeps up on you.
Not like the roaring lion, because youre prepared to fight that off with your stock sermon armor of God.
But it finds its way through a small crack in your protection. and creeps its whole way around your body.
It is that first thought, of judging a person as worse than you in church, because you've been growing so much.
Then maybe its that second thought, where you want to reem someone out for the wrongs they've done to you, not realizing how wrong you've been to them.  Then maybe that third thought, is when you look at that person with longing eyes just for a minute too long as they walk by.  Then you turn around, and do your best to respect her, even though she was the equivalent of a television show for your eyes a second go.

This sin, it finds its way in.
When were fighting the BIG battles.
It sneaks in from a tv show, or a joke.
It finds its way in through a song that brings up old memories.
Or in a movie that has content you did not know about going into it.
It deteriorates our armor.
It takes the battle were fighting, and makes it a losing battle.

then out of nowhere.
You stop enjoying worship. and you do everything you can to comeback to where you were, just a week ago.
Ya know. you start fighting the battle for yourself.
Instead of letting God fight the battle.
Its funny, as soon as we lose a little sight of God, because of sin seperating us. we immediately feel this need to fix it ourselves.

WHAT THE HECK ARE WE GONNA DO!? REALLY?!
really zeke.
You just messed up your walk with God.
and you expect yourself to turn it around.
Come on man, you've heard this all before.
You wont fix anything.
Youre the one who messed it all up.


Thankfully. that is just how i see myself in those times.
God sees me differently.  God sees me and sees everything he will do through me. not my failures.
And thankfully. God picks me up.
God starts to fight this fight for me.  And work out the 'big' and 'little' sins.
you see we need not to fight this. but to grow in God and stand up for ourselves as much as possible.

We have a God who has won the battle already.
HE stinking transcends existence.  I think he's won the battle we cant even fight by ourselves for us.

SO then the question is what do we do about this?
Because day to day we need to continue to work on how to better ourselves.

Well it can be summed up in the title of one worship song.
(seriously how cliche is this? zeke you can do better :P)

We were made for you (God).  We love God. in the song hosanna, it says when we see you we find strength to face the day.  God, you've won the battle, and you continue to fight for us in our growing. We were made for you, help us to live out that wholeness.

--Your Beloved Son